It's a struggle to find the courage to even get out of bed some days. The fatigue I feel comes from so deep within me that I fear that I may never feel free of it. So, how do I go on? What do I do to get through this day? Not only get through this day but, to actually find happiness or joy in it? HOW? Its a question that is rolling around in my head over and over again like a bad commercial.
I'm in a really rough place my friends. One that has me just wanting to bury myself away from all others and lick my wounds.
Is it okay to feel this way? I think so. I think we each deal with life and what it gives us in our own unique way. The important thing to know is that I won't give up. I will rise again. I will smile again. I will laugh again and find my joy and happiness. It may not be today. It may not even be tomorrow or the next but, it will come in its own time for me.
I write this to let you know that you're not alone if you're feeling this way or have ever felt this way. I write this to say it is OKAY to not bounce back right away. It is OKAY to take your time in gathering and renewing your strength. Find what heals you from within and pull it close and let it start to heal you. For me, its God. He is my rock, my salve, the ultimate comforter. I will shut down for a while and wait for Him to work in me. After a while I will be whole again and strong, able to go at it with renewed vigor. Until then, I wait for Him and His peace.
I hope that you find your peace friends. Give yourself time to heal. Weariness is a hurt. It is an illness just like the flu. It has to run its course. Don't rush it or you will only cause a relapse. Take some time away from people, work, everything. Pour a cup of tea or a glass of wine. Light some candles and listen to something that soothes you. Sit still and just be.
Much love and prayers.
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